In my last post, I wrote about the second stage of deep change – awakening. As we awaken, the awareness of our spiritual nature grows as well as our awareness of what needs to happen to transform our lives. This leads to the very important stage of Discovery.
Discovery is, in part, personal as well as practical. The discovery that you are worthy of positive change and that your life will be better as a result is important, certainly, but the practicalities of how to facilitate the changes that are necessary loom large. This is the time you find yourself making statements like, “I’ve got to do something about this – this is serious”, or “Something has to change.” But how do you actually do it? Where do you go? Who do you talk to? These questions are huge and often create overwhelming emotions. Giving up and retreating seem like reasonable options during this time.
It is also during the stage of discovery that we often become aware of our interconnectedness and spiritual nature. I had already moved through the stages of awareness and awakening when I agreed to enter treatment for alcoholism. I knew I had a problem and was receiving intuitive messages that I was worth saving but I was yet to discover how many people were able and willing to help me and that I was not alone nor unique. As I sat in groups with many other women suffering from addiction, I was amazed to feel so understood. I felt safe and was able to be vulnerable and to speak the truth for practically the first time in my life. In those early months of recovery, I found a willingness to be willing to continue the process of discovering more and working on uncovering the person I was born to be.
I know now that it takes time to know it takes time. Recovery, like life, is a process of ongoing discovery and the key is to be open to receiving the gifts that discovery brings.
Marianne Williamson said in A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of “A Course in Miracles”, “It takes courage…to endure the sharp pains of self-discovery rather than chose to take the dull pain of unconsciousness that would last the rest of our lives.”