Under the Influence

Whenever I see a rainbow, I feel as if everything is possible. I feel as if I’m truly present and under the influence of joy. When I hear or read the phrase, under the influence, I immediately think of alcohol or drug use but we can be “under the influence” in many ways. How aboutContinue reading “Under the Influence”

The Importance of Community

The need for connection and community is primal, as fundamental as the need for air, water, and food. ~ Dean Ornish I felt a visceral void within me for years. It was growing and becoming more noticeable. Finally, when it became impossible to ignore, I remember weighing my choices and I’m so grateful I choseContinue reading “The Importance of Community”

When I Look in the Mirror, Who Do I See?

Who Am I? This is a huge question that is difficult to answer because during any life, we find ourselves playing many different roles – one at a time or all at once. So the question of how I identify myself requires consideration, self-compassion and a willingness to hold my identities loosely. My therapist makesContinue reading “When I Look in the Mirror, Who Do I See?”

The Winds of Change

I attended an online church service today, and heard these words, spoken and sung by the inspirational musician, Lea Morris: “The wind of change flows from the past, into the future, touching us in the present.” Lea spoke the wise words of Ekhart Tolle and really dove into the truism that we only have theContinue reading “The Winds of Change”

I Can Fly My Kite Everyday

Flow is an attitude, a mind-set that allows you to feel as if you can fly your kite everyday, even when there is no wind. I clearly remember when I attained the big milestone of 5 years of sobriety – I was irritated and unhappy – not because I had chosen sobriety – I actuallyContinue reading “I Can Fly My Kite Everyday”

Discover the Sun

It doesn’t matter whether there is a thick blanket of clouds, pouring rain or blue bird skies – most of us can determine if we’ll see the sun or not. I used to feel like Eeyore all the time – at least inside. I always had a happy looking exterior because I didn’t want anyoneContinue reading “Discover the Sun”

Why Do I Feel This Way?

I always had this feeling of not belonging or feeling alone in a crowd – a feeling of disconnection that seemed to keep me separate and apart. Do you know this feeling? It literally took six decades for me to learn that I felt this way and still do every now and then because ofContinue reading “Why Do I Feel This Way?”

I’m FINE – Really?

Freaked out/F – ed up Insecure Neurotic Emotional Now that you know one of the acronyms for FINE, you won’t be able to flippantly say, “I’m fine!” without smiling to yourself anymore. It’s a perfectly fine word that has been ruined by overuse, usually by people who don’t want to tell you that they’re notContinue reading “I’m FINE – Really?”

Living in Flow

One day you realize that everything seems easier. You’re not having to check your thinking or the words coming out of your mouth. You’ve eased into a flow that seems effortless and wonder when this happened? This happens when your heart and soul are in alignment with what you do and the way you behave.Continue reading “Living in Flow”

My Labyrinth Experience

Twelve years ago, when I was in treatment for alcoholism, I attended a workshop on the History and Meaning of the Labyrinth.  This was a half-day workshop organized by the Spiritual Advisor at the treatment center.  I was very depressed at that time and being at the workshop was a requirement, so I was there,Continue reading “My Labyrinth Experience”